These questions are so beautiful and so hard to answer. I also have done all that writing and submitting for 20 years -I spent 5 years writing a novel and then getting myself organised to submit it - with no traction so far - although I believe strongly that is a great piece of writing - even if I say so myself :). I started writing here and also the traction is slow - but again I am confident in my writing - perhaps my marketing and branding needs some work - I am not sure. I often try to reframe these questions into things like - am I enjoying doing this? Is this helpful for my own process? What can I learn from this? etc. But I do feel there is a prevailing story that at some point things will line up and we get a lucky break or be discovered - but maybe we won't. So, if I remove the lucky break option, what is there instead? I quite like that space.
Ta, how beautifully you expressed the feelings you have. I wonder what purpose God has for me, I’m 67 this year and still struggle with life and what’s happening in the world, but I leave this all in Gods capable Hands, Why, because I trust, that in His time, He will open my eyes and soul to whatever it is I’m really suppose to do.
My heart is an open book, as is yours dear one.
May God bless you on your journey. Be patient dear soul, and may the Lord open your eyes and soul to what you were meant to be.
I feel the weight of your questioning, questions which I frequently ask myself. Sometimes I wonder how long the waiting must last. Forever? God threw me this verse the other day:
“Sow your seed in the morning, and at evening let your hands not be idle, for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well.” Ecclesiastes 11:6
It’s not always easy to keep going, to keep wondering, and to keep waiting, but this verse reminded me that only
God knows what might come of each tiny step we take. I wonder if all he asks of us is to step out in faith, and to keep sowing, each day a new morning?
I also feel the constant pull between wanting more and being content and grateful for the life I’m living.
Don’t stop writing, there’s a real beauty in the questioning of your work; and it’s a very attractive trait to stand up and voice the things that you believe in.
These questions are so beautiful and so hard to answer. I also have done all that writing and submitting for 20 years -I spent 5 years writing a novel and then getting myself organised to submit it - with no traction so far - although I believe strongly that is a great piece of writing - even if I say so myself :). I started writing here and also the traction is slow - but again I am confident in my writing - perhaps my marketing and branding needs some work - I am not sure. I often try to reframe these questions into things like - am I enjoying doing this? Is this helpful for my own process? What can I learn from this? etc. But I do feel there is a prevailing story that at some point things will line up and we get a lucky break or be discovered - but maybe we won't. So, if I remove the lucky break option, what is there instead? I quite like that space.
A very honest and authentic post. I’m creating new work in my 50s. It’s scary and I ask these questions all the time.
I can see that you are also facing the fear and moving on step by step anyway because deep down you know it’s your path.
Keep writing and releasing the fear as it’ll ease.
Ta, how beautifully you expressed the feelings you have. I wonder what purpose God has for me, I’m 67 this year and still struggle with life and what’s happening in the world, but I leave this all in Gods capable Hands, Why, because I trust, that in His time, He will open my eyes and soul to whatever it is I’m really suppose to do.
My heart is an open book, as is yours dear one.
May God bless you on your journey. Be patient dear soul, and may the Lord open your eyes and soul to what you were meant to be.
Love and prayers to you and yours. 💛
I feel the weight of your questioning, questions which I frequently ask myself. Sometimes I wonder how long the waiting must last. Forever? God threw me this verse the other day:
“Sow your seed in the morning, and at evening let your hands not be idle, for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well.” Ecclesiastes 11:6
It’s not always easy to keep going, to keep wondering, and to keep waiting, but this verse reminded me that only
God knows what might come of each tiny step we take. I wonder if all he asks of us is to step out in faith, and to keep sowing, each day a new morning?
Thanks David, these are some wonderful reflective points I will enjoy mulling over. 🙏
I also feel the constant pull between wanting more and being content and grateful for the life I’m living.
Don’t stop writing, there’s a real beauty in the questioning of your work; and it’s a very attractive trait to stand up and voice the things that you believe in.
Thanks so much Sophie. Your comment is a very welcome e-hug I needed.